Today would have marked my 23rd week in pregnancy (more than half way there to hold him or her) and our baby would have been as large as a mango (according to babycenter.com)! How crazy it is that we can produce human life! What a wonderful gift from God!
Every week that goes by I can't help thinking that I would have been...
It hurts so much to not have our baby anymore, I feel empty.
It hurts to see a girl that I work with at the same stage I would have been, only two days after my due date of Oct. 3rd. I walk by her everyday and it is a challenge for me to not cry or even be angry at the world! But with the strength of the Lord, at least once a week I stop by to say "hi" and to see how she is doing. I can't be angry with her and I can't deny myself that friendship that I have built with her. I am so excited for her, more than the day she told me she was "expecting too"!
I pray each and everyday that the Lord will give me strength to face the devil with all that he throws at me and He does!
"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." - Philippians 4:13
I've never had to face a challenge so hard in my life! Some days I want to scream and kick my legs like a baby, "Why do I have to go thru this?!?"
“so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”- Ephesians 3:17-19
I praise the Lord everyday for what He has given me! I have a wonderful husband that helps me to hold it together but without the Lord in the middle of it we couldn't do it without Him.
"Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." - Ecclesiastes 4:12
We have a great family that supports us no matter what, a beautiful home, the best little puppy that any family could ask for, wonderful and encouraging friends, great careers and career paths, a beautiful future to look forward to and most of all we have Jesus!
Praise Jesus! Without going through all the "bad" stuff we wouldn't have made it here. Right here in this moment of our lives it is so amazing for what we have on earth!
I know that the Lord has a wonderful plan for us and I look forward to it. In order to see that I have to continue to cling to Him.
'"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
AMEN! And just remember that God has already made available all we need, including love, peace, joy, and hope. It is up to us to claim it and act on it every moment of every day and hold our heads up because we are God's children and he is our loving Father. He will never fail us, even though this world continues to! Keep renewing your minds on God's promises and goodness whenever you feel overwhelmed or discouraged! Keep up the good work. I love you!
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